[F4 lounge post]

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[in which we have private F4 times]

Comments

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

You keep changing the subject, but I don't think you're finished talking about Aeris yet.

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...

...

No? What do I have left to say?

[continuing to wet her hair]

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

About why you're upset... I mean it should be obvious, but I think there's more to it than that.

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Do you.

[combing her hair]

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[noddi-- o..ow my hair, abandon nodding]

I do. And it's important that you talk about it, right? Otherwise you'll still feel sad...

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Shouldn't I feel sad?

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

That's not what I mean.

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Then?

[she is now disabled from turning around by the fact that the scissors are outttt]

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[sitting stiiiiiill]

If I could have begged her to stay for Hanazawa Rui's sake, I would have. Because being around her, you seemed happier. Kind of like when you were with Shizuka-san.

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[snip snip]

It wouldn't have changed anything. Aeris didn't choose to leave.

[but these are definitely 'thank you' hairpets, not haircutting ones]

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

But because she didn't choose to go herself... that's why you're so sad, isn't it?

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Mm.

[snip snip]

She had no regrets. But she left everything behind.

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

Everything?

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Yeah.

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

And because Hanazawa Rui is a really kind person, you're upset for her, right? Even if she didn't have regrets herself, it's not fair.

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Mm.

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[tearing up on your behalf then T__T]

It must be painful...

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I'm sad.

[putting down the scissors and kneeling in front of her]

Don't do that.

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[crying very unprettily and scrubbing at her eyes]

I'm sorry, but-- [SNIFFLE] just thinking about how sad you must feel... [SNIFFLE] somehow I can't help it... [SNIFFLE] I-I'll be okay in a- [hiccup] a second.

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[here, have a hug]

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[sniff hiccup sigh, but reciprocating a little awkwardly this time]

I was supposed to be the one comforting you, but it switched again...

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Only a little, and only because Makino cares.

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[wiping her nose on her sleeve]

I said it before, didn't I? You don't have to hold back with me.

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[blotting her tears with a handkerchief]

Am I?

[weedoverflowers.livejournal.com]

[shrugs a little]

It just feels like you carry everything inside all the time, I guess.